Hello dear gravity,i was hoping maybe you wouldn't pull me down this time?
You must follow your heart
if i'm worthless in your eyes, then you obviously don't know me. i've been through more than i've been exposed to. did that statement make you tilt your head? good, that's what i'm here for.
there’s more truth in imagination then you realize…
FASHION
fashion , hair, modeling, and makeup.. i love it. i really love everything that comes with it. i love big hair, lots of hairspray, and smokey eyed makeup. what my life consists of. i haven’t done any modeling yet! but! i’m working on it.. i really want to get into it and see myself and face places. i want to go to a fashion institute and also get my generals in college. i want this to be in my life forever, this is what i want to do! people dislike me for how i look and who i am and that's just a part of my life that i have accepted a long time ago. people shy away from me because of it, but i'm here to have a life and i don't need acceptance in order to live it.
II laugh,i cry,icare,i smile,i obsess,i imagine,i overact,i blush, i hide,i live,i...l..o..v...e..
i'm a slut because i'll wear shorts and a tank top. i'm a bitch because i won't let you push me around. i'm a liar because i won't tell you my secret. i'm dumb because sometimes i'm wrong. i'm ugly because i don't look like a model. i'm annoying because i like to talk. i'm a loser because i'm not friends with your group. i'm a fake because there's times when i'm happy. i'm spoiled because i am fortunate. i'm weird because i'm not like you. i'm clingy because i like to surround myself with people. i'm greedy because i like to be satisfied. i'm naive because i'm younger than you. i'm conceited because i'm proud of myself. i'm rude because i looked at you. i'm unappreciative because i don't praise you. don't try to tell me who i am because i already know.
lately i've been a little more blunt. don't talk to me, and you'll notice that i am shy, quiet, and reserved. try to be nice to me, and talk to me, i'll be shocked at your reaching-out-behavior, and i probably won't respond at all. say hi in public, i'll probably just fake a smile. i don't like to talk to people, because the less people i talk to, the less i have to deal with. i've taken notice that if you talk to more people, and make friends, your name gets around. and people tell other people things that aren't true, resulting in lots of damage done to you. my theory is, just keep walking, don't look at anyone, don't talk to anyone, and people won't talk about you. people will give up on trying to make friends with you. you might see this as me being an inconsiderate asshole. after all, you're just trying to be nice. but understand that i've been through a lot with people. and i've never been more sick of people in my life. people know me at school as "the girl who never talks", and i love it. you can run your mouth to me all you want, but the second you touch me is the second you die. fear turns to rage. frowns turn to smiles. and then people realize why people don't talk to me. and more importantly, why i don't talk to people.
Kissing by an angel,the power of life,soulmate..
I fell asleep with the lights on, and I can see that you're the first one in a long time that had some faith in me. I tell my friends, it won't be long before it's time for me to come back home. It feels like I'm ready for anything, if you can wait for me. And all the while I say too much of what I think, and I can't remember what it's like to find meaning in anything for the life of me. Everyone I used to know says they don't know what i've become. But I'm still the same, not much has changed, i still know where I came from. And all I ever wanted was so far from what I need.
